Some things I've written

This is a copyrighted work I wrote. It's from 2003 and it's about an ex.

These feelings that I feel
Pretend or if they're real
Wish I knew how to let you go

The past is still the present
And everything I see
Represents a part of you and me
And I wonder

When will it change?
Why do these feelings still remain?
And as small as they are it's still really hard
To move on

To ba able to be with you
And not be so confused
By the things in my head
While I lie in bed dreaming
Dreaming of you

Because I am holding on
To a memory that has already gone
And you say you still love me
That's another empty promise you plan to keep
Just another empty promise you plan to keep

I'll get there in time
And time is all I need
To feel complete again
And you'll be my friend

The scars you've left behind
Have yet to heal
Can you see them?
Are they not real?

While I lie here screaming
I don't know what I'm feeling
Am I dreaming?
When will I be free of you and me?

I can't be who you want me to be right now
I can't do what you ask of me
You've changed but you don't see
You're like a different person to me
Let me heal at my own pace
My emotions are not in some kind of race
In order to be who I was
I need to figure out who I am

I've lost track of myself
I'm in one thousand different pieces
Today I'm confused
But that's nothing new

My mind is a wreck
My emotions are in shambles
I wish you could see
What you have done to me

If it was gonna be this way
Why did we ever say
Yes to another chance at this lovely dance?

A short blurb from that time -

What makes you think I'm ok?
Is it the way I smile at you?
The way I laugh with you?
Time hasn't healed my wounds
Do you really know how I feel?


Something else copyrighted and from a happier time -

Under the sheets is where I want you to be
Under the sheets lying next to me
I want to feel your heartbeat with mine
As we make contact time after time

Grabbing and moaning you beg for more
The room gets hot as our clothes hit the floor
Reaching for each other in the dark
Our inhibitions left right from the start

Moving with my body your hand holding mine
I've wanted this moment for such a long time
As your breath whispers my name
You're letting me know that this isn't a game

Reaching and pulling you bring me to you
I know exactly what you want me to do
Don't say a word cause I already know
That I'm the one in charge of the show

A little tease here and a little tease there
I want to run my fingers through your hair
Your back will arch and goosebumps you'll get
I know you're ready but I'm not finished yet

I'll kiss your neck I'll kiss your ear
I know you want to bring me near
My hands are travelers
Your body my map
It's your fine ass I'm about to tap


This was for a movie that never got filmed. We called it the stalker song - it never got a title.

I see you
I see you but you don't see me
I know you
Want to be free of me
Don't try to get away cause you won't get far
You're trying way too hard
I see you're running and running but you can't hide
Can't get away from me

I see your tattoo
I love your new hairdo
Yeah I've been watching you
And I've memorized your every move
You know I want
I really want
I really want
You

And another for the movie that never happened.

Hey Boy
I know you're looking at me
Hey boy
What are you trying to see?
Hey boy
Yeah I'm talking to you
Hey boy
You better pick up your shoes

Hey boy
You better turn around
Hey boy
Cause it's all going down
Hey boy
I know you like what you see
Hey boy
Stop staring at me

Hey boy
You know you're not my type
Hey boy
You don't know what I like
Hey boy
You better do what I say
Hey boy
And just be on your way


I have other things for a different movie that didn't happen and they are on my dead computer. One day I will retreive them.